It has been 6 months, two weeks and one day since we were officially on the "list"...which means we need to schedule an update for the homestudy. This one will be easier - as I understand, we don't both need to be there and it's just a quick look-around. At which time, I am going to point out our new garage door opener with the seeing eye thingy and a couple of other fun things. We're hoping to schedule this meeting in the next couple of weeks...

Last night I got a call from our counselor...B (the birthdad) has just come into the picture and thinks he may want to parent Baby J. In cases like this, all profiles are pulled until the kerfuffle is sorted out. We're not sure if or when we will know anything about this baby, or whether he will be parented by one of his parents.

There are currently 17 babies in our agency's nursery though, so perhaps one of those babies is ours. We will continue to keep our minds clear of any negativity and focus on the end result and hope that you can all join us in doing the same.

As written in the Tao Te Ching, chapter 33:

Knowing others is wisdom;
Knowing the self is enlightenment.
Mastering others requires force;
Mastering the self requires strength;
He who knows he has enough is rich.
Perseverance is a sign of will power.
He who stays where he is endures.
To die but not to perish is to be eternally present.

Jeremy and I thank you all for your enduring support, love and prayers.

Small but awesome update...we are still in the running, and it is down to us and one other family -- WAHOO!!

If you could do me a favor, in the words of my amazing friend Dianne, "lift up a thought, pray, yell, meditation - anything!" -- for Jeremy and I as we wait patiently (mostly) -- for our wonderful families and friends as they wait to become one person larger -- for little baby J as he waits for his family situation to work itself out -- and especially for his mom, C as she makes the most difficult decision of young life. And hell, while you're at it, throw in a word for Spring, because I am sick of this damned snow!!!

Much love to all of you!!

A little post to update you guys on our newest situation...Mom made some cuts over the weekend and we are still in the running. I don't know how many families are still in the running with us...probably 3 or 4. So we're still waiting patiently (mostly LOL) and we hope to hear more tomorrow.

I know the right thing will be done here; even if this little one isn't meant to be our son, he will have a loving, wonderful family when this is all said and done whether Mom decides to place or parent. I did some major soul searching this weekend because I was feeling possessive of this little guy and I reminded myself that I don't want just any baby, I want ours. I want the child who is meant for our family, and I don't want anyone else's baby. I need to remember that this is not in Jeremy's and my control. All of your loving thoughts and prayers have been and will continue to be appreciated and felt, thank you!!

Not a baby related blog today...just a hey howyadoin blog. It was a fun weekend - Jeremy and I went out for Thai food on Friday night as a late Valentine's Day dinner. We really like this restaurant; it's just a little hole in the wall place-nothing special from the outside but the food is really good!

Saturday, I went to breakfast with my friend Annie and had a great chat with her...then we went shopping. If you know either of us, you know that we are marathoners and we both excel at shopping :) It was a quick trip to Carson's to look at baby clothes - I needed a gift, and while we were there, I found the cutest little Adidas tracksuit on the clearance rack...and for $7.50, I couldn't pass it up...especially since it was my favorite color (orange!).

After we were done with our little jaunt, I went to pick Jeremy's wool coat up at the cleaners and went home to "help" him pack. I mostly veto/approve shirts. I took him to the airport at 5 and came home to wait for Michelle to come over for our sleepover evening of piggery and talk. We had pizza, chocolates and cupcakes...delish! Sunday we went to the outlet mall where I got two very cool things that don't go together whatsoever! I found the cutest red, platform, peep-toe slingbacks with red bows on the toes. They are almost cartoony in their retro-goodness...I fell in love with them even before I noticed that they were clearance priced...at $7.25. I bought them so fast I think I saw my credit card smoking.

Then we went to a wonderful children's store called Strasburg. Here's a link to the store so you can bask in the beauty that is their clothing selection.
http://www.strasburgchildren.com/index.html
These are the kind of clothes that you really don't want your children moving in. They'd be great for portraits - but God forbid your child would want to eat or play in them, because they are works of art...and expensive like works of art! So we walked around the store and oohed and ahhed over the clothes and then my eye caught this darling diaper bag hanging on the end of a clearance rack. I've been looking for a nice diaper bag that's not too expensive but still attractive, so I checked it out. The original price was $40, which isn't bad, but it was marked down to $9.99. Then I saw that it had been marked down further to $7.99! I asked the salesgirl if it was really $7.99 and she said that it was actually the lowest price plus an additional 20% off! That really got my attention, so I took it right over and had her ring me up. Apparently, I missed the tag that said $4.99, because when she said "That'll be $4.01" I almost swallowed my tongue!! Isn't retail therapy fun?

The rest of the day/evening was spent curled up on the couch with the dog and a book or two. I started The Kite Runner after hearing good things about it and so far, I like it. I should be finished with it this evening if someone wants to discuss it :)